(wallow sounds too much like brood sounds too much like stefan. stefan who wasn't there, stefan who is here, stefan who damon is not. the association makes damon bristle, and he drops his hand to look at misato, eyes narrowed. )
Is this your point? Seriously? You don't even know what you saw. You don't know what that was. And you think you can fix it with some platitudes about introspection and letting go of the past?
( people always want to rationalize trauma. they want to dig through it, find the places it's planted roots and pull them out. like there's a beginning, like if you just find the deepest darkest tendril and you untangle it you'll free someone of their pain and life can go back to normal.
damon has learned a lot in 170 plus years on this earth, but the most important lesson has been that life never goes back to normal. there is no returning to what you were before, no way to make things better. it's what stefan never got, what elena struggled with after her parents died — he wants a way to undo what he's done, she wants a way to be her old self, and damon has always known there's no point to thinking that way. getting mired in the past, yearning for what can't be, it never does anything. wallowing has never been his problem. )
It doesn't bother me.
( he clenches his left hand into a fist. relaxes it. feels broken bones and fire at his back.
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Is this your point? Seriously? You don't even know what you saw. You don't know what that was. And you think you can fix it with some platitudes about introspection and letting go of the past?
( people always want to rationalize trauma. they want to dig through it, find the places it's planted roots and pull them out. like there's a beginning, like if you just find the deepest darkest tendril and you untangle it you'll free someone of their pain and life can go back to normal.
damon has learned a lot in 170 plus years on this earth, but the most important lesson has been that life never goes back to normal. there is no returning to what you were before, no way to make things better. it's what stefan never got, what elena struggled with after her parents died — he wants a way to undo what he's done, she wants a way to be her old self, and damon has always known there's no point to thinking that way. getting mired in the past, yearning for what can't be, it never does anything. wallowing has never been his problem. )
It doesn't bother me.
( he clenches his left hand into a fist. relaxes it. feels broken bones and fire at his back.
counts in to eleven, out to seven. )